and just like that. Im gone again.
I break the silence after two months of silence, the moment where I prepare to move to a new location again.
I ve been in New Zealand for 3 months. Wait, let s call it what it is: Auckland. Because Auckland isn't necessarily New Zealand.
It has been a melancholic trip where I lost my focus for a while, and as usual, the moment that I decide to leave, I start to regain my confidence and get back in the zone.
I ve come to realize that my life can be dissected into 3 months-periods.
Three months of being in LA, three months of Mumbai, three months LA again, 3 months Auckland, another 3 months Auckland, and now my final 3 months Auckland. Meanwhile, my relationships seem to be doomed the 3 month-curse as well.
Material evidence to back this theory:
After every big 3 month-period in the last 3 years, my phone gets stolen (I have the receipts to prove it)
Is it karma? my 3 month-doom?
I dont know, I do know that this morning, after 3 months....my phone is gone.
(oh well, these last two weeks, I have been living in a backpackers, so it was bound to happen, I guess).
From the moment I arrived here at the beginning of October, I remembered why I didn't particularly like this town, it s grey, even when it s sunny. The town is very undefined -it could be the setting for any city without specific characteristics-, And even though it has some good bits, like all towns... I would call the town: very...plain... vanilla.
I wont go into details about these last 3 months, because even for me its a blurry blob of random events. They were challenges of perseverance, which I may have failed, as I am moving back to Europe.
And although sometimes dissappointment strikes, I have decided there will be no regrets. Not now, nor about any of the three months-periods before, because, really, what s the point?
Yet, you can never help but analyze what is, your life.
I m 27, a random age where in conventional standards, you should have a steady boyfriend or husband, - and maybe also already your first big break-up or divorce-. You should be pregnant, already have a kid -or at least have had The Talk - with longterm boyfriend or husband.
And finally, have a career, or a hint of one at least.
Although, I dont have the first two things sorted, and the hint of a career, is just a hint, not more... I find that my happiness -for now- lies in a different kind of knowledge.
More specifically, in the knowledge that I have friends and family, in a place that I call home, no matter where I go, or how long I go away for.
And really, even when politicians try to dictate disagreement and division, Belgium is not such a bad place to call home.
What I also figured out is that I have lost the romantic notion related to work.
Especially when the make-belief tries to sip thru in daily life, I start to appreciate it all for what it is: my life, my reality, my choices.
I know, it s a pretty basic knowledge, but this realization makes this 3 month-cycle completely worth it.
Meanwhile, these last days here.. I mentally prepare for the big sister-reunion in Sydney on friday- the oldest coming from Belgium, the youngest coming from Auckland, meeting the middle one, in the middle, Sydney, where she currently resides.
Sydney, where we will be spending 12 days together as sisters, and after not have passed more then 4hours together since puberty, I reckon, this to be quite the challenge, a good reality tv format.
So, while I prepare for the next three month-cycle of my life... I take it all in, I take it for what it is, vanilla Auckland.
PS While I write this story, somenbody from the frontdesk just came in to tell me that an honest man came and handed in the phone!!!!
The end of the karma-thing, Maybe??... maybe not...

This might come as quite the surprise to you all, but this will be the last entry on my blog, at least as ingridgoesnewzealand in New Zealand itself.

